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The Hardest Day
Author's Notes: I shouldn't write fic when I'm depressed! Thanks Tk for reading this for me! She's a lifesaver for keeping me going on writing fic.
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This was the hardest day of his life - watching her walk down that aisle to marry the man of her dreams. The look of pure happiness that spread across her face when she reached the end and turned to face her soon-to-be husband.
He should have seen it coming, he should have seen the pain that was to consume him. He hadn't realised the depth of his feelings, how badly he loved her until that day she had run into his office. Joy flowed from her as she told him that they were to be married, her arms circling round him and holding him close. He had breathed in deeply savouring her scent and the warmth of her touch. Taking in the way that she felt for the last time.
He had stood there as her love walked into the room and kissed her then turned to him with worried eyes, that betrayed what he suspected, that the man he faced loved his fiancé and asked his for his blessing, for him to be his best man. And he had plastered that fake smile across his face and tried to be as happy as he could in his heart for them.
Because he saw that they were in love, happy and blossoming together and he knew that he could never take that away from them now.
He should have spoken out long ago, he should have said what was in his heart. How he had grown to love her, desire her, totally and completely. How he dreamt of holding her, worshipping her, making love to her and becoming a part of her that she could never let go.
But he hadn't. He had bided his time, waited and now it was too late.
To love and too lose, it was the most hated thing that could happen to someone and he could have stopped it happening.
She had come to him the night before, full of worries and regrets. Would she be happy, was he right for her. And there was his moment, his moment to confess his love and take a chance. It looked like she was waiting for him to say something, to take her in his arms maybe. But he just sat and talked about her and the new life that awaited them all. He had pushed her back to what he dreaded most, but he knew that is what he needed to do - for her.
So here he was watching her dance with her new husband, smile once across at him and mouth "Thank you." Thanking him for understanding her and giving her the push she needed.
But part of him still drifted back to last night and thought that if he had just had the courage he would have taken that moment and used it to his advantage.
But he hadn't taken that chance, he couldn't do to Jack what had happened to him. Daniel turned back to the bar and took another drink. He had lost his wife and known that pain and he couldn't bear to bring that pain onto another person. His friend.
Daniel turned and watched them again, and knew that he would always regret this. In his pocket was his resignation ready to be posted at the airport tomorrow. They would never know why he was going or where he had gone, but he knew that he couldn't stay here anymore.
It was the hardest day.
The End.
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